Am I Enough? I Am Enough!

Can you relate to these statements? In life, and especially as women, we sometimes compare ourselves to those around us who appears to have it all together. We measure where we are in life in comparison to where they seem to be. When we feel as though we don’t measure up due to life’s challenges and circumstances, we begin to change our statement of affirmation from “I am enough” to a question: “Am I enough?”

For many years in my life, this was the question?????? I felt like I never measured up. I felt like I was never good enough. I felt empty and lost, as I looked through the lens of my family and friends who seemed more accomplished. Constantly replaying my relationships filled with abuse and heartbreaks, I fell into depression, and was suffering from postpartum depression after the birth of my daughter. I attempted suicide. I felt incapable of desiring any good for my life. After living through my suicide attempt, I began to look at life with zero emotions. This was the most challenging time and the most painful period in my life.

Living with the raw emotions of no self-worth can plummet your life to the point where you believe the lie that you’re not good enough, will never be enough and that you deserve nothing good. I felt like I was digging myself deeper and deeper into a pit with no way out. That was when I began to realize I had to decide what I wanted for my life. I came face to face with my reality and where I was and forced myself to verbalize the question, “Samantha, do you want to be enough? Do you believe who God says that you are?” It was a battle in my mind because I thought, “How I can be enough after all the mistakes that I’ve made? How can I be enough when people that I loved abused and rejected me?” But deep within I was determined to climb out of that pit. I wanted to be free. I wanted to live in the freedom of being me. I wanted to say and know, “I am enough.” 

Today as you read this blog you may have dug yourself into a pit through your own choices or by the decisions of others, but I want you to know that “You are Enough.” I had to fight. Only my therapist and those close to me understood the depth of my pain. I know where you are, I know the emotional roller coaster you’re on. I know your struggle. I see the fight you are in, and my message to you is “the battle is already won.” You can be free and become determined to overcome. 

I desire to speak life into your situation and to let you know that there is hope. Seek Godly counsel, seek a friend that you can trust. Be willing to be vulnerable and let someone know how you’re feeling. Be ready to get support through therapy, begin to search the bible for scriptures and meditate on the words that will build you up spiritually and emotionally. The first battle will be in your mind, changing the thoughts of defeat to feelings of hope. You must believe in yourself, and that you have been created for a purpose. Get around positive individuals such as a life group at a Church or Community Center who will challenge you and guide you into your journey of freedom and redemption. I can’t promise you that this will be a quick fix to walking away from your painful past, but I do know that as you take one step in front of the other, as you seek support, you will change the question from

 “Am I Enough?” to “I Am Enough!” 

Living life on purpose